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Another day in Hell

Another day of tourment

Another day of daydreaming of the past life

Another day of pain and regret

Another day of lying on a dirty, bloody concrete bed

Another day sitting in the ruins of the American Dream

Another day of hearing forgotten screams of past ghosts

Another day of bloody, ravenous teeth inches away from my jugular

Another day of gnarled fingers reaching for murder

Another day of…

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I'm held up in this run down house i fled to while being chased by the undead. The tried to get to me for what seemed like hours, I think they're gone now because i don't hear any near- by moans or screams. My muscles are so sore from being tensed up from fear and i think my hands fell asleep from holding my gun so tightly. It's now sunset, the sky is a putrid orange color... the sun is a pink dot, i think i have forgotten what a blue sky looks like... or a normal sunset, because i haven't…

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Bloody hands

Sadistic smiles

Wild staring eyes

Empty Souls

Lost Hopes

Thoughtless minds

Murderous intentions

 

... And these are just the survivors

 

Oh, Sweet paranoia.

Fill me with your fear

Entangle my brain with irrational thoughts

Engorge my heart with frantic blood

Fill my lungs with bated breathe

Make my trigger finger twitch with hysteria 

I invite you to come and keep me company, because you are the only company I have.

I have managed to keep track of the days since everything happened and i would like to greet you with a Happy New Years, uhm maybe that should read "New Years", there us nothing happy, joyous or merry about the way thing are and will continue to be.  I remember when i used to celebrate this occasion with my family. we would yell and scream with joy that a fresh new year was upon us, but now the only screams i hear are their screams of horror and torment. I dont dwell… Continue

I woke up.... again.

I wish Iwould stop doing that, I wish to stay asleep forever so i wouldn't have to deal with...well, what the world has become now, a gaseous ball of shit that reeks of decay and lost hope. I want all of this to stop already, I know... i know i wished for the day to come every time i closed my eyes and sure i was elated that it had finally arrived but then i realized that the more this went on, the more i came face to bloody face with the conclusion that this is not… Continue

I am alone now, i sit in the ruins of life and the ruins of my home. I wish to feel the touch and hear a voice of another human being.. to hear a voice that isnt SCREAMING in blood lust at the chance of ripping my innards apart. The only voices i hear now are those who i have slane and their screams will echo in my head for years or weeks to come, depending on how thin my insanity will fray until i cannot take this any longer. Im situated in this darkness…

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