February 12, 2011
I don't understand whats happening. I'm so confused, so sick, so scared, I just want it all to end. I'm still trying to figure out how I'm still alive. It always makes you sick as hell and it always kills. I woke up this morning and I looked around the room for a second and then I realized something: I WOKE UP! I checked the date on the laptop and I was asleep for two days. I'm just so weak right now. I don't want go to sleep, but I can barely stay awake. I'm going to take some pain medicine and go back to sleep, if I wake up I'll let you know of my situation. If this is my last post, I just want to say goodbye to the world. I tried to make it as long as I could, but my time may have come. I really don't have the balls to take my own life, so I guess its best to go in my sleep. So long and may humanity overcome what I could not!