i dont undersatnd...

i dont understand it.. i have been alone for 4 years now. i hade to kill my parents.. my sisters.. and my brother.. i was almost bitten trying to give my little sister i good-bye hug.. i am just now starting to go crazy.. i can tell.. but im not sure if i am.. i keep recordings runnig sometimes for fun and i catch myself talking to my family.. i miss them so much... i have not had human contact in over a year.. if anyone wants to bunker with me i need you and you need me.. i have food to last 2 people for at least 8 years.. maybe by then this will be over.. i live in the middle of the quiet woods with redneck houses that still have ammo and guns but i have not needed to go get it. someone save me. or at least put a bullet in my head to end this pain. by the way.. i still have power.generators are very helpful. i will post soon.. bye