life of a leader #3

After our breakfast of deer meat and wishful thoughts i knew i couldnt put off making a descision any longer. i slowly arose and walked to the center of the room. clearing my throught to draw attention to myself i began.

"Alright guys Lets get reddy: we're going to split up and go hunting today; we're not low on food but i don't want it to get that way any time soon."

i paused for a second, knowing some one would have a question, and of course Landon started in.

"Question," he began, "when are we gonna go down to look for stuff?"

I nodded slowly and Allen continued his thought.

"Yeah David, when are we? we're almost out of bullets"

Landon interjected, "Rounds" he said.

Allen glaired at him"whatever, anyway, david, if we stay here we'll run out of ammo, then what'll we do? "

"then" i said "we'd use arrows and melee weapons, but it wont come to that, we have enough for now "

Daniel pipes in; "for now?? what aabout later, when the gummy bears strike?!"

Jay snorts, Kile smiles and Tanya shakes her head; thats Daniel.

The group soon desceened into general, and racsious, conversation, i had to shout to be heard: "ok, guys, ok!.. here's whats going to happen: Kile will stay here with Allen, Jay will stick with Daniel and Tanya, and it'll be me and Landon together" they all noded and filed into their groups, the conversations beging again. me and Landon start down the mountain as Jay and the othersgo the other way.

on the treck Landon begins with some sort of extended joke, making a lot of noise and irratating me, i try to ignore him whilst still seeming like im listening, it works and my mind is able to wander. as i look about i let the worlds natural beutie wash over me. even in the zpoc(not my term, see "blabez of fury") the sun streeming through the trees, casting a greenish hugh on the environment, the clouds dancing overhead. its overwhelming and it reminds me what im fighting for.

As me and Landon descend the mountain i remember a snipit of

As i get up from my short and fitful slumber on the lumpy bed of mother earth the fear, worry, and fealing of pure inadiquacy hit me like a wave of cold water. i look around at what used to be my hold out, the emptyness is tangable. My eye's wander over to the blank spot where Landon used to sleep, a pit reopens in my stomach and i swallow hard remembering him.

Landon was but one of my group...

my dream-