Need to talk pt.5

Am I paranoid? Well, that's what everyone is saying about me. It's not paranoia, it's fact. I know they are plotting to kill me, I can sense it. This one bitch Cindy, she's a religious freak...always waving the Bible around..praise this, praise that..she keeps asking me a lot of questions about my past. She is trying to get between us. Please don't talk to her! She was asking to see my laptop, I told her no..she thinks I am hiding something. The others are beginning to listen to her words..she is creating confusion. I know who to trust. Am I paranoid??/..ha!...don't make me laugh...Where's your God now????

We seem to have some other new problems like the dogs seem to be going wild and are getting into everything. The dead don't want them..the walk freely, doing as they please. The smell of fires, rotten flesh and garbage is getting just unbearable. Rats and mice are just everywhere...our food...our water...where we sleep..they bite, they shit everywhere and are evil little bastards. The water is almost gone, there has been no rain to help us fill the cans. It's cold outside, tomorrow is Halloween. The leaves are turned, falling off the trees...you can hear the rustling outside. I wish it was kids playing.

Tammy, Tony and myself are gonna get out of here tomorrow, during the day...we need to see what we are doing. There are two buses out front, we have gas tanks..we can get at least three hours North from here. I have the keys!!! Yes, I searched and found them! I know we can make it. I have been stock piling food in my bag...we have no water though. The time is right. God only knows what we will run into out there. I am really scared..no lying here. I feel we are almost waiting to die sitting here, no relief is coming. My family needs me. They are alive..my son, daughter and wife..I have hope. I believe in the happy ending.

We are thinking taking the New York Turnpike..we figure there should be plenty of cars on the road to refill if we need to, maybe we will find other survivors too. I am learning to be selfish though, I might not stop. Just see what they have, that might make me stop...use them for the greater good. You almost become a scavenger... just like the dogs have become. The back roads might be better, just nervous about night time out in the middle of nowhere..could end badly. Tammy is so good with the gun, she is a must take and Tony is good back up...don't worry I haven't told them about our plans. I am with you til the end.

Sorry if I am coming off rude...have you heard from any of your loved ones? I am always hoping you have great luck too, family is important. I miss mine terribly too. I know...we are on the same thought patterns...like we are twins or something.

So, wish me luck..this laptop has a decent battery, so I should be able to message you once we are out of here...I am gonna make it. I will find someplace to stay for a night or two..gotta get my shit together. Happy Halloween...stay in touch my friend.