Blurry my visions, drunk up more wine !
There's no time to be hurry, I got all that's mine !
If this the end, truly I'll be very happy - I am ...
Pick up the razor and end it all up fun !
I feel helpless and I feel abandoned
I feel the world is turning but I'm still upside down
All this life. I feel secure, I feel blessed !
But I know for sure that before the storm came, I must prepare for the perfect ending !
Humonguous desire and secret dreams,
When all I want is everything ...
And all I've got is talented sisters far away,
You don't know how truly self-pity this girl was and still do,
As you thought she's just a beautiful thing - your eyes can't take away !
Gosh, I never realize how weak I am !
And how stupid my imaginations could be !
All I want is a peace of mine ...
And killing myself in a right perfect time !
Outbreaks will come , I'll be gone !
Hope that you all my friends could be saved,
For me there'll be no tommorow !
See you soon, I'll hope it will be forever ...
Never waiting for miracles, happy birthday to you sabah !
Tawau, January 6th 2011