Time to go part 1

Ever since i could remember i have always been obsessed with being prepared for anything. You hear about bombings and wars everywhere. They can happen anytime and anywhere. My husband always thought i was crazy for wanting my shed stocked with canned goods, water, medical supplies, batteries, and just about everything else you could think of. He doesn't think i'm crazy anymore. My kids thought it fun to learn how to protect themselves and moaned about having to do exercises everyday to keep them in shape. They are no longer moaning or having fun. Its funny to think about a time when there wasn't death all around us. So many things you never even think of you end up missing. That morning cup of coffee listening to the news. Or going out to check the mail and chatting up a neighbor. I have not seen any neighbors in weeks. Or has it been months? Time almost seems to stand still these days. I gave up awhile ago trying to keep track of the date or the day of week. My 8 year old used to talk non stop and now he barely says a word. Just keeps looking out the window. My 13 year old was all about school before and now that there hasn't been any and he's ran out of books to read, its hard to keep him occupied. Our lives have changed forever and i don't know how to make it feel better to anyone of them. We need to get moving soon. The one or two roamers that used to shuffle through the neighborhood have been turning into 4 or 5 and its been getting harder to keep the baby quiet. The one thing that worries me the most is lack of space in my car. For years i resisted getting an SUV. You know gas prices and all. But now i'm stressing on how to fit all our needs and all of us too. I wanted to wait till everything calmed down a bit. Ha. That notion is hilarious. The first couple of weeks were filled with panic and everyone trying to leave. So much violence and senseless murders from people in a panic. The roads filled with cars going absolutely nowhere. But now its time. I wanna head for the mountains. I think it would be a good place to hold up. I hope i'm right. I don't know what else to do. Our house just isn't safe anymore. We have a good amount of supplies, but they won't last forever. Also we are restless. Its time we busied ourselves. Its now or never. These god forsaken creatures are starting to wander out more looking for their next meal. I have a full tank of gas and a plan. I hope it's enough. I guess we will soon find out.